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Friday, January 06, 2006
A part of me will always be with you

Never a better tomorrow. Die glynis, die. Lovers & Friends, choose. Things aren't getting any better.

I might as well reply you here. 'Cos erm, hah, I didn't said anything to you while you were explaining. So here it is. I'm not mad at you 'cos you're with my exgf, you love my exgf. If someone who's not close to me, or rather I don't know that person, is with her, I wouldn't be that mad. 'Cos dearie, this coming-four years friendship is precious to me. I've always trusted you, you're the first one I run to when I needed comfort. Remember the other time about DHL(I hope you still remember who is DHL)? You were the first person I called, YOU SEE THAT NOW. I wouldn't say it's wrong to fall for her. Well, I mean feelings can't be controlled right, uh huh. & I would definitely say it's wrong to end this love because of one fucker & you know that everyone won't ask you to(use some common sense ok) & I find that that was really a frivolous thing to do. I swear I was bunged up when I knew you both were together. I'm sorry for feeling this way, but I can't help it. I thought, how could you do that to me, 'cos I trusted you & I know you won't do it to me but it happened. Face it, glynis, it happened. Well, then again I thought, feelings can't be controlled. None to blame, I guess. I was exasperated yesterday when I read the text. At that very moment in time, I wish I could go right up to your face & bitch-slap you real fucking tight. Backstabbed, I was feeling so fucking pain. Things can't be any better that way. But then again, You're my best friend for coming-four years. I definately wouldn't do that unless I'm seriously outta my fucking mind. Like what you said, everyone makes mistake, & you just did. This is one of them. If you treasured the friendship between you & I, M& you, you wouldn't have gone with her when you know that M likes her & she was my exgirl. When you took this route, you've already disregarded our friendship. Whether is it coming-four years or is it coming-fourty years, you gave me the thought that you don't care whether this coming-four years friendship or whatever, & it doesn't matter to you anymore, it doesn't even worth a penny. Don't tell me you're sorry. Too many sorrys & it had already lost its meaning. If you knew this was wrong, in the first place you's have stop it from coming & wouldn't allow it to go any further.

I hope you understand how I feel & get what I'm trying to tell you. Well, what is done cannot be undone. & our friendship's torn & tattered, right now. I don't know, I'll try pulling us back together as close as how we used to. But somehow it still hurt inside so I hope you understand yeap. Congrats anyway.

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All out, finally. It's driving me crazy inside. I'm definately crazy if I'm gonna cry over it so obviously I didn't. Phew, I'm feeling so much better & thanks baby for the web. It came as a surprise. :D & I love it. & you know I really love surprises. & the web is so lovely although you didn't like do it yourself, as in the background & all. :\ Hahha I know someone's trying hard to make friends with HTML. :)

I'm being really talkative in my entry today. Hahah bear with it. I felt so useless last night when baby cried & I could do nothing about it. I really don't know how to help. All I could do was to listen(ugh glynistan what a fucker are you!). I'm sorry baby, I really don't know how to help you. I kinda gone through that before too but uh it was the promises she made that got us drifted apart. & for now, ignore her alright. Uhm yeh. You still got me, for all time. I promise! :D & your words are so candy-coated. Awww. (: I won't forget what you said! HAHAHAH. (your girlfriend's going crazyyyyyyyyyyy, BEWAREEEEE)

From my youngest years
Till this moment here
I've never seen
Such a lovely queen

From the skies above
To the deepest love
I've never felt
Crazy like this before

Chorus:
Paint my love
You should paint my love
It's the picture of a thousand sunsets
It's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love

Been around the world
Then I met you girl
It's like coming home
To a place I’ve known

Chorus

Since you came into my life
The days before all fade to black and white
Since you came into my life
Everything has changed


For you, love. <3

Hey nnats! :D I miss you too! Come back to sjc lahhhhhhhhhhh you nehneh!

They say nothing last forever
<3,


8:18 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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